Saturday, 23 June 2018

Searching for freedom, the big ones

Open letter attempting to find help,

Don't you know what the quarantine is? The matrix. What is that? The grid. The circulation. Do you understand this?

My spiritual path is mixed in with the conspiracy realm, that's why I know a lot and the 'break out' mentioned was focusing on the spiritual AND theorist term of "waking up".

There is a new Black Eyed Peas song called 'ring the alarm' that mentions "open the third eye". Katy Perry has a song called "Chained to the Rhythm" suggesting people are like zombies and not in an aware state, called, 'awake'. I call for the revolution!

I would like to talk about 'the quarantine', 'the containment', the isolation and entrapment or encirclement the humans are in from free movement of travel and the truth confinement. Of being in a "limited zone" that serves 'the Cabal's game'. Do you understand, are you advanced enough? Because I'm searching for some specific help. I "do not wish to participate."

Please message me if you can possibly forward me to the right fraction or person -

I am looking to find a way to be in contact with The Agarthans. It is with reason. Please, if you know any way, or anyone who has access to the official Agartha Network, please let me know them, and message me. I am a benevolent, asking purely something for personal reason. Maybe I need someone from the Galactic Federation.

I am requesting this because... Do you know of a breaking point, where you're so awakened and aware that everything is too unbearable for a 'spiritual height' that makes the environment too inapprropriate and unsuitable to live in? I litterally feel the feeling of being in a cage or rope tied up all the time. Due to my ability, I am at this point, where if I have to participate and do what everyone else is doing, it's of 'embarrasment'. I'm not a child of Earth school, wandering around lost, if this is just about being aware 'something is wrong' like the higher spiritual watch anticipate.

I'm an older soul, and I can't stand living here any longer, and I need to find contact with some comforting people that are stronger than the falsery, or good news, because my brain is squished, and hurts in this matrix, I don't feel like I have anything, I'm poor but I'm too scared to work, it's wrong, the spiritual heirarchy of higher beings being able to have more is not evident to me, rather it is like being a Forced Robot in a camp, (I can't go where I want, I can't say anything I like, it's irrelevant to ME, I feel lost here) and, I know I am not at "home".

My existence, as other humans in consumerism leads to and engages in environmental descruction, to a specific finite point, and whollisticly, this deeply saddens me. So I'm very serious, and I hope you can find someone who can help me! I have no support, and no friends. I am 20 years of age.

I break through knowledge in my mind. I am in pain because I know soo much that this place is 100% artificial and fake, designed on money focus, and does not support my spiritual bodies, to an extreme point where it cannot serve me any longer in most possible ways.

It is not fair. I have an ability that makes people appreciate flowers more and attune to the peaceful natural state of Earth. It means I feel used, when with interaction with the flocks of sheeple humans.

To the point, I understand, we are in *a limited area* of CONTAINMENT where the inner CIRCULATION, primarily money, to keep the mind trapped in greed or satisfaction, prevents the escapism realisation of reality that tells the opened awake 'people' that the malevolent forces keep them in a type of slavery where quote, "they do not care at all about you" but instead want to keep control and dumming down through 'time waste-use' of school, work, up to death.

Put explicitly, it requires individuals to think outside of the box, thinking and working out what is beyond this box deemed as the limited construct designed for you to indeed not know what is beyond it, for a way of how to know, due to the dumming down and realistic disconnect from non-physical communication. "Imagination locked in a cell".

For example, ET contact with 'the overview effect' openly taken about other planets and civilizations, understanding of their families and recoginition of their other social structure.

Or another Earth that is futuristicly recovered from environmental damage where people inimately have connection to wildlife, nature, and the Earthly vessel, having ability to be in natural communication, with the ability to multidimensionally see within the Earth, below the surface, due to innate connections, I'm deeming this as another way of living for the example. Explicitly questioning how we are supposed to live.

This is to explain that to be trapped here is very confusing for me and I'm forced to live with and 'communicate amongst' a less advanced civilization and format of Earth/homeland. I feel think and talk nothing like other humans yet I live among only millions other of them. Sharing knowledge and speaking ordinarily, I worry frequently of breaking the prime directive with this type of 'knowledge'. My potential abilities are beyond their mindset. I see music as depressing because the frequencies are designed to agitate plants and harm Earth (441Hz to 432Hz conspiracy theory), there are few good tracks. That's not sarcasm for oldies! Hahaha.

I want to 'break out of the circle' or 'cut the line' from this, without causing death to myself, because I'm sad and tired of it and too aware it's all happening, I feel like colours faded of a colourful person, from being trapped in it. ETs know all this wording according to my intuition! It's up to me, to find help. And I want my freedom! It exists, with the right people. "I do not wish to PARTICIPATE any longer in the luciferian experiment of being cut off from types of outer worlds". My contribution feels already fufilled.

There is possibly a place known with a nickname as "sanity"? If so, I wish to go to this area/city, please! I don't wish to waste anyone's time - I'm serious. I am expressing I wish to go into an entrance and I am looking for an escort.

What is Agartha? It refers to the whole inner area. It has a large city called "Shamballa". To a person that stares at the outer world map, the Agharthan place is just as big, the whole thing, if not much bigger, I should really say, since there are the multidimensional cities and undergrounds established 'cities', of multilevels, too.

From asking this type of help, you may have questions, please, let's clarify it, I wish to express even in minute detail if ever required, what may appear as a block to my request. I can't give up on this. I need you to really do a favour so I find what I need. (I also wished to show my knowledge in this letter/message, that I had 'figured out' issues I wish to be protected from).

> I do know that everyone else who is 'invited' gets telepathic received communication, but there's something really wrong about it. I can't do it, even though I'd have multiple ways of being able to receive "that type of information".

Actually, I found out that telepathicly, the code wording is 'cheesy chips' or 'chocolate house' to initiate free housing due to what could be termed as "spiritual enlightenment", but I really cannot recieve telepathy correctly, I'm still thinking but I'm stuck. But I do not need to be 'more grounded' because I am AWARE AND AWAKE to what is happening and I feel bigger than it. To continue is like being a slave robot to something I'm intelligent enough to beat/transcend.

The situation is that: If there is someone too advanced for the surface level, also telepathicly put as "illegal movement" that they request assistance from the higher beings/residence on the planet. This is what I'm doing. That's why I'm really serious and need you to "hold the line" until there's some action about this, even if you have no personal understanding of my request. I need the authorities to take this into hand, please. I need the authorities to take this into hand, please. Can you assist me? I am an ET hybridised person. I wish to be physically connected, to meet at one place. Please think about this, or get me to the right people?

From Charlotte Emily Melton.

(On the mobile view please press on the images to largen them So they become clear enough to read)

I am looking for the core of light. It is similar to 'home' but has a meaning of 'basics'. I do not have unconditional loving parents or any support. I fend for myself without work. I have an inner knowing that this could potentially be on Arcturus star. I do not have a ship that can take me. I want physical assistance.
Please physically come to me in the third dimension where I exist in reality. You must fight the suppressors that control me.

Saturday, 28 April 2018

Post 59 - I talk to trees. They talk back!

How on the Earth can you not read this, and know we are not ALIVE and completely NUMBED to it? (Lacking the feeling received from senses, ability to recognise and feel life).

Entanglement (higher dimensions, thought realms, currently disregarded as intangible, how science claims to have no clue about how we think and suggests it is *a nonphysical* phenomena) and consciousness (awareness, sanity, mind, sensory perception, our senses heightened,) is all important! Please watch the video to find one reason why:
[The Backster Effect]

A flock of birds, a shaul of fish, geese flying in a V, bees in a hive, ants collecting 5x their body weight leaves in a long line, birds flying South, cows or sheep in a heard, they all seem to know what they are doing. Do you believe in animal interconnectedness, or behavioural empathy?

If you adopt small family additions, you should ideally adopt two (or more) rabbits or guineapigs to prevent them getting 'dangerously' lonely. Not to mention, a very large living area that must be cleaned very regularly and nutrition.
Elephants have been shown holding their trunk rather than another tail if they want to hold a tail in a line. It is natural!

What is natural?
You can't tell me just the opposite, not synthetic, like plastic material made things made out of plastic. If we look at Pocahontas (go watch the movie, the wording is very DEEP, and if you 'return to nature' the song lyrics and movie meaning will give you some reasons for anything you may need to later explain) the film shows that there is 'connectivity', like how in Avatar (another good movie, the one with the blue ETs) the trees were shown to have memory and a complex earthed network like a brain.
The tree with the face in Pocahontas was symbollic that trees Are life that send electric signals to communicate, they have sexual systems and grow up. Yes, that means although they do not physicly move as would a human, they can send messages to nearby plants in telepathic-like ways! When plants are cut, they have a detectable 'scream', and, other plants around them can hear it...
My personal spiritual experience is that I can talk to trees, I hope you can believe me, I give them 'high fives' when I walk past them (you try it, completely use your mind, and trust that they heard) and I promise this is true, they can ask me to "look!" and one time, I looked at the tree and saw beauty because the sun was shining through the leaves and the tree wanted to 'give me a moment'. You can learn how to talk to them! Tree whisperer, hugger, green friend.

It's pretty interesting, right?
I started talking to trees after watching the Video linked above. I gave some a hug, whispering nice things like 'I love you, Thank you,' etc. I started to hear their voices, in English, in my mind, yes in English! They were communicating with me! And they learnt a lot and all started talking to /eachother/ since I suggested they 'worked on self improvement'... So if you start talking to trees and opening up spiritually, that, could happen!

There's a very important point about nature, who are you supposed to be? Someone who knows in themselves:

>      I AM MOTHER NATURE     <

You are not just thinking of natural colours such as tan, green, and browns but serious and aware about what trees are.

If you want the super power of talking to trees, I advise the following:
If you would like 'to learn', it's easy. But recently (end of May 2018) the trees were told to stop talking to telepaths. It got a bit too much. It's hectic or chaotic if every tree you walk past asks for high fives and watering!
So go litterally hug the tree down the garden saying comforting things, for 20 mins 1 time a week, see if it opens up to you. Pick a nice looking tree - it matches personality! Note that they don't speak to humans but talk with their roots in and under the ground, the soil is their 'home' like the air is what us 'animal movers' breathe.

"Everybody Wants to Rule The World - Lorde" song. It is 'dark'.

You do not want to rule the world, this is just greed, ego, your evil. The truth is that your inner world is far more important. You cannot control the world, if every individual thing has it's own mind - that is called 'controlling' and 'manipulative'! You are not that person. You cannot BE that person (to be, a calm 'humble' existence peace) but you yourself have power to fully control your body and decisions. What is the aim and purpose in life? To be one with nature and to communicate with it.
Imagine a circle. There are already etheric circles around you and 'everyone' (everything is conscious)(even if You, your senses, are not conscious of it, Trust life, and learn what you have not been taught, there is a space for it) and, you find you are IN and ONE with it. The mother nature being can speak and audify these conscious realms and thoughtwaves. The thoughtforms are now tangible. Speak to them, they will send back, FEEL for them!

It's like breaking to your awareness that the mystery of fire, normally spoken of as a chemical compound in explaination but is Light, and a plasma, and is very hot not 'just because it is' but has the temperature to sustain it's form (of it's formation) - if nature speaks, study(silently look at, passively)/observe it, it speaks the answer, like an intuitive voice, intuition is a whole real superpower everyone can develop. It is how 'to know what you don't know' - and you really want that, right? To know truths about what is not taught but can be learnt. Please try it out.

Please read this link,

What if: trees know what we are speaking about, and, they have their own type of communication.
My treehugging explaination is they have a network connected to their roots for communication. Emotions, and, many expressions, can be presented to other plants surrounding it, and deeper plants such as a big tree, can reach very far away plants, even beyond next door's tree line.

If you are starting to get it, and you think you do not know what is going on in the outer divided split world, let's dive out and see what we currently go by, would it be 'synthetic', another word for 'fake', on the other hand? I will tell you why it is so. But it is very depressing.
Please watch:
Juice Rap News: The New World Order

Help Awaken Humanity:
Children (general humankind) don't know they are being used. Read on: But everything here is designed for you to be used! You are using yourself in your own little world, or finding the way out of the matrix to the heart use. Until then, consider yourself a sheeple. Manipulated by any hidden thing on this freewill planet of war. Sheepleville welcomes you? Or SAVE YOURSELVES. Work is a type of compromise I can't believe you actually agree to! You become 'wasted' and only saddened and feeling controlled By it, not being your own self. Working a job is truly, an uncontrollable slavery that takes You away, what you do IS you, you HAVE your own body Fully attached to you! You only take your own fun away by making bad life decisions.

"Feed the machine" (Nickelback)

Lyric 'Harvesting you', that may mean,
- everyone from a birds-eye view in the matrix
- they will take your mind life, you continue it, work and you won't exist, they can use that, like app permissions
- what can be gotten away with? THEY WILL DO JUST THAT!

When you "realise" like self actualisation that they take your mind away like an amnesia, and will manipulate your brain waves with insanely huge other level 'spiritual' technology, they will want to kill you, or if you fight it, desire you the torture worse than death, a thousand deaths of the psychopaths upon your bare naked delicate pure soul to deaden the resistence against them. Tell the others, know, with caution, that isn't holding back but bravely reaching out. Get everything you can. It's a terrible unfortunate truth, the fake lie, all the harmful things that they do.

ARE YOU NOW AWARE YOU LIVE IN SLAVERY? Did you intensively research 'the Cabal NWO New World Order'?
You can't get out of the maze, this is like maze runner. You must know about The Matrix, it's difficult not to be a used robot.
You are just a puppet. When you really feel a knowing of this, you are a voodoo or rag doll of the reptiles in power. They watch you along, they have advanced technology which gives to no privacy, that sees through walls mapped everywhere, they watch all the screens, they hide in 'Cabal DUMB Bases', and, if they are not pleased, they will forcefully persecute all of you. Everything you have and do does not matter, except, it really does, since the psychopathic needs are not of your own, they do not care and YOU need to be the one to care, you are, a true one of a natural empathic nature, and a loving person. One who umderstands a baby to a parent's arms, soo delicate and fragile... War on this planet has seperated countless, and now we know the real enemy! They call themselves "The Illuminati".

I must explain that, to work a job is more pointless than having a sack of rice and being forced to pick them all out one by one and remove/identify one brown grain from it, using chopsticks, every time of 'going to work for money'. This isn't just only the malevolent reptilian aliens trying to rule over Earth and brainwash humans, they just want to completely use, change, and manipulate other humans, you have lost your body, and futhermore, the federal reserve claim to own everything that you rightfully own because: you bought it with money that they claim to own in the first place, although you worked for it, and that is still working in their 'little world' system, that denies access for benevolent E.T.s to give us free food rations to every human in poverty, whilst making the people of other planets and stars all stereotypically appear dangerous and too weird to handle, making your mind lie that loving people will give poision and not just their selfless kindness to another race. (lightwork/the light forces). I found that all the scientific research had the aim of assisting the dark side. They use what you learn and have technology that takes your thoughts. They release research relating to their agenda, and suppress cures and information that won't fuel it. For example, dangerous chemicals made in the lab are used for healing, but cannabis oil and qigong have been proven to heal. Ancient Chinese used cannabis plants, but now they are illegal, and practicioners of falun gong have been reported as jailed then killed and having their internal organs traded in the transplant industry, no matter how much these practices have promoted peaceful and moral behaviours, they get clamped down on as illegal with brutal or secret forces.

David Icke said that the moon is an ET Command base, not just for benevolents but even for the reptilians.
The moon landing was faked and was recording from a studio, not from out of Earth's atmosphere.
There is control on the moon that can make it move it's position easily, as if by remote control.

What can we do?

Try to gain telepathy. Get help.
Research it. Live differently from now on, be more self responsible and observant. "Decalcify the Pineal gland" and "open the third eye, learn to read blindfolded" the wording might seem very difficult or new there, but please get to know your pineal gland soon.

I advise that you learn qi gong for health if you wish (you can search 'qi gong heals tumour in minutes' it is a cancer cure, and assists psychic abilities, EHF, ESP) Research psychic skill and spiritual topics like it is a university degree. If you gain that much knowledge, such as that including learning muliple ways of seeing auras, you can't go wrong.

Charities have been described as just part of it so if you are wanting to join the forces against these horrifying monsters, try other groups like 'anonymous' and 'anti-NWO'.

And what about OUR natural interconnectedness? "Interconnectedness theory" is one of the Spiritual topics you can research. It's facinating to get to 'truth' with all it's complexities, it gives some ground, rather than the opposite.

If you are into ETs, ask them about Vega and the trees there. Can trees walk? They know an ET answer. "Tree people" of a huge colourful forest.

Here's a blog post of mine for learning about other dimensions but in a 3D way:

Thanks for reading
Feel free to leave comments with questions
BlueCharlye ICEM.

Sunday, 22 April 2018

Post 58 - Space shape and dimensions

Hello! Let's boggle your mind:

A sructure held up to sunlight and turning, that makes a shadow on the floor, is"a 2D perception" but in 3D the held object looks quite different.
I got the idea from this video. But I'd like to expand with my own ideas, and, more research!

This dimension can appear very wide, yet also, very flat. And, there is something even 'wider', 4th dimensional perspective, as discussed in spiritual multidimensional universe or the metaphysical hyperdimensional physics, or there's, 5th that's even higher or 'dimensionally deeper'.

Planes can be seen, Flat on a surface, A flat surface, Up from a flat surface (as if between the object and shadow there are lines between it, or, up from it), Over / Above a flat surface ?
There are "more directions"
It's an increase in "spacial", since it's of space. When space increases... There are all the other dimensions.
5 < 4 < 3 < 2 < 1 < 0 > 1 > 2 > 3 > 4  > 5
If there are lines, lines are of two resonance, but have height of flats, flats are of three resonance, they are infact actually three dimensional resonance being (existence)?
Resonance is like saying 'vibrating at that frequency' or 'on a wave lengh that matches inside that 'number''.

And if there is an unlimited universe, placing things in order, such as up and down or with minus numbers 'beyond' and backward from zero shows there's no simple one, two, three, it's a structure of comprehensibility at this current development point. From zero onwards is a 'start'.
What is lower, even if depicted as a written number scale, is really still infinite.
<infinity, 3, 8, 22, 650, 1000
There's a 2D flat, a square with a circle in the middle of it. You can't see the circle from outside the square, facing around it on that flat.
There is a room in 3D with a box that has a sphere in it. You cannot see the sphere that is inside the solid box.
So if you were in 4D, there may be some type of container surrounding where you can't see the inner contents, you're on an outside to it.
Potentially the same up more dimensions, 5D, 6D, 7D's type, do you feel any more primitive now?
Or, you would be able to see the inside contents, and every face around the container, in a higher space-ability sight.
This looks 3D. No matter what density, lengh or size, material, shape, and height at, it is actually /still/ something in the third dimension.
But it's a '2D drawing', but from what I have explained, despite it being linear, it is still of the third dimension, it is here as a depiction. Yes, this does show we are close minded, if we happen to live in a multidimensional multilevel world where we can gain perception of these 'rooms of different wave lengh'
"rooms like stairs going up" - dimensions
Each step is a floor-level for a door, the upways part of a step, becoming like a door that can be entered. This is a representation of dimensional levels from an outer view, a travel/movement/>way method of entry.
If you draw a cube as 2D lines, it makes a square in the middle.
(Side note, these drawings include mathematical geometry, angles and proportions and stuff when they show 2D drawings as 3D and 4D linears rotating. All the lines in totality making the image, and each little degree that it spins, the lines between are at different spacing, the lines make fractals or portions at all different lenghs, you'll never see these diagrams the same, again! That itself has it's own laws, in the 2D, indeed as a purely and pure 2D form.
It's about "perspective".
Look at it really flatly, just look at all those lines that make tonnes of little shapes between them or all the little and longer lines produced by the lines inside the drawing. Impress your eyes!)
 You could get a 3D presentation of a cube within a cube - a "tesseract".
If it was a 4D shape rotated, the outside may potentially become the inside when rotated, like a torodial field, that has additional space.
Laws such as up + out + forwardways
Or higher "layers sliding over eachother" almost, the smaller inside square goes /out/ to become one side and the bigger outside /slides/ and goes around and goes in (becoming the smaller cube).

This shape goes inside and outside of itself like a moving torus. Aspects required are top, bottom, all it's sides, in it's function, like the engineering of the 4D shape, in tangibility to the 3D.

The Earth is a straight plane you walk along. There may be hills too. Then you get a picture of Earth and it is a fat slightly wide sphere. That's not from illusion. But it seems to be from judgement and perspective. You're not meant to feel you are walking sideways on the equator, and you won't ever drop off. Is Earth straight or round or both? It can be all explained optimisticly including everything by hyperdimension.

To reference, and to help you understand a little more, I got the images and idea and inspiration of the topics from:

Some nice trigonometry in this video, just a continuation on the same frequency, don't go into math, just think of the complexity of shapes:

2D cube sides only structure is a small square with a larger square in front. A tesseract, a cube inside another, connected and showing lengh of sides different yet in proportion, suggesting difference in depth or density, suggests an inccomplete multidimensional picture.
A 3D cube has the depth and may require a diagonal perspective to show that it is 3D rather than 2D if the dimensional level is unknown for some reason.

With a stereographic projection, the light source being father away will create a larger distance between the vertices or linears of the sides of the shape, a cube has a projection like this:
but out to 3D again
(the greys deleted a bit of my information here, I will retype it when I get the information,) more complex, thus whole space, could have 8 or 16 but not because of suborients but of higher quantum dimensional 'directions' (to do with compass orientation, NSEW)
A sphere is using x y z, 3 directions of two extremities showing depth, but it's too simplistic still, since depth has been added as another axis but the law is unexplained as something additionally added.
But a 2D crunched to x and y, 3D as x y and z, 4D as x y z w, etc, makes the axis' pretty identifyable. To see x y z w v in 5D mapped probably looks pretty neat, if that can be done (a basic diagram of a 5D shape with 5 axis' through it)
We use a compass to magneticly find points, but for third way proximities or points, I'm not sure what would be used, since 'facing one way in a sphere' then requiring map coordinates of place facing (pointed) towards is a little different.
Pythag triangle a2 + b2 = c2
draw a new 4th line that is upward like a new vertices that makes it 3D, and then we use 3D Pythagorean Theorem.
(From another website, the basic explaination of it: If the side lengths of the rectangular prism are x, y, and z, and the diagonal line connecting opposite corners of the rectangular prism is s, then the equivalence holds where x² + y² + z² = s².)

A square oblique projection to a cube, is a cube projection that is joined together to be 6 cornered at the top and six around, cool shape. Shapes correlate with a higher dimensional shape every time they gets duplicated/squared and joined at their corners or rather said 'vertices' like this:
Since a higher dimension has larger more complex laws, proportionate potentially numbericly, the more it is a 'grounded down' projection, like the image of a shape with a shadow and looking at the shadow or line map, with the descriptions written about in this blog post of the potential of shape, the true full blown shapes could be very different!
So those images are when you continue adding and joining lines, it is not stretched but it looks like that since it got more complicated. The last image above is called a hypercube.
hy·per·cube (diagram or model)
a geometric figure in four or more dimensions that is analogous (comparative in a perspective) to a cube in three dimensions.
{Cross polytope (probably incorrect description here)
polytope = shape with flat sides
cross (to this,) = closed / convex in the shape and n dimensions (4D, 5D,)}
A pattern to make it able to see visualisation of other dimensions. You make a tangent line off a line, then attempt to fold it.

Technically everything in 3D is or can be viewed as flat. Look around, since, you can't see through objects? So, flat!
a cube is a full shape
and in the air there is, with depth, and 'space', shape.
it's not that it's dense, more dense 'to fit' like creating a solid, because of the perspective that it IS space, not the theory that many flats make a line, like many lines make a flat, and many points make a line.
It is Not the perspective of it's make up either, the atoms that form anything material, no matter it's lengh, weight, and depth.
In this space, what is 3D, is of 3D space. Does that already make sense?
What is the description/explaination of that? 'Beyond lengh, 3D has it's own laws, like the 7.23cm wavelengh'

2D version of 3D
Is this the 2D or 3D cube? (that 3-cube drawing, or, an actual cube sketchup representation)
Anyway, a 2D cube, with more time --> and more space <-- becomes a 3D cube.
Would a line be a 1D cube? Or a square? If a point was a cube, what would it's small laws of physics be?
lengh+width+height =duration(4D rules)
Space has 'spacial directions' (turn to face north) Time is a direction in your inner.
Dimension is a direction. Can you see them all stacked directly on top of one another?

Another followed on idea, it taken further,
2D to 3D
is added depth
The difference between dimensions, is that depth?
Is there depth in 3D or just shape / density?
A note if you are into multidimensional perception or see-travel:
If there is a curved shadow or 2D when the 3D object is the same, the 4D higher source of energy is the affector. 2D being low, 3D being middle, 4D being the high dimensional law plane of existence here. So a higher thing can distort or 'shape' something lower. And once again, something higher like a shape with a shadow (of lower dimension) can look very different, like information was missed or changed. Maybe it relates to reproduction, in duplication error.

A tesseract: there are the eight inner joints, that when pull through, become outer sides or inner lines in one big cycle.
It's all the structure. It's going to move as it does, in order, that way, with stages that go one after the other.

Think about this, visualise it on a screen in your mind or as objects in your hands if that helps > A line turned on it's side directly faced becomes a point. Basically, a point can turn into a line by turning it sideways. The line must be a straight line. A (very) flat surface turned on it's side turns into a line. A shape viewed from the front appears flat (look around at the 3D world! It's all one big flatlined wavegraph!) A 4D or any higher dimensional shape viewed from the front and not from the sides may therefore be a 'minimal' version that follows this pattern.
This beautiful image, dimensions DO get complicated quickly with number, it's amazing, and it can be even traced in Crystal Structure, natural formation crystalline point line flat space shape analysis, it's good spiritual knowledge.

Mobius strips are an expression of the inner being as the outside, one. A belt depicts an outside and an inside. But both have one surface with traits.

Something like a 3D infinity loop that goes in and out would make an object where you have a way to be on the inside and the outside because of the entry and exit called - a klein bottle.

If you drew a line all the way around it, this strip with one twist in it, you draw on both sides and end up back at the same place. Just try it if you don't know it already. With a regular loop of paper, it's usually either or and easier to draw the line on the outside, when you are positionally outside, unless you are in/at the inside of the middle of it.

It shows another law of space and shape, something soo simple, no material added but another shape, like a crystal, like a rainnow colour wavelengh, is something that's altered by only a few very naturally adjusted things.

I hope you enjoyed this! If you did, go research dimensions, or learn of mind comprehensibility then link it to spacial understanding, that's how I was thinking, here.

Thanks for reading, go check out the rest of my blog and comment below!
BlueCharlye ICEM.

Friday, 6 April 2018

Post 57 - An inspiring realistic and optimistic conversation

Send this to someone such as a child that you wish to be less lazy? The following jumps from one thing to the next but the paragraphs are a string of advice on what to do.
Here's my casual talk to someone to try to inspire them to 'reach out reach up' in their life:

I passed the highest levels in both ice dance and figure skating. I was going for the elite rink but my parents divorced and moved so my mum did not take me any more but I still wanted to go.

Skating inspires and impacts me to be strong and flexible, ice skating requires huge agility and feels Angelic since the ice is a Heavenous White to glide and spin upon.

And if you personally decide that you would like to go, you can wear knee pads if you want to, but my tip of the day for you is, to only think of uprightness, and you will be able to stay upright.

Anyway let's get into this, now you know what I used to like. Because of school sadness, I used to cry all the time when I was younger.
What helped me out was:
- Finding Passion.
To be interested genuinely in the subjects, and curious about what they hold, to eat up knowledge like it is chocolate cake.

How can YOU find passion? Search on the internet "things to do in 'my city' recreational activities sport leisure fitness". Find other things that you like, search it up on maps app or get some other way to see where's your most local place.

Local 'Visitor Attractions' might hold the key to happiness. Take strolls to the local park regularly, if you have the energy, if it's too cold/falling-from-the-sky, go somewhere that has indoor activities.

If you struggle with waking up, keep the same routine but just sleep more in the morning (till nine o'clock is plenty! Go to sleep before 9:45pm. No excuse) to keep as much the same as possible. Take deep breaths for 30 seconds before sleeping?

You're bored because you have the attitude that life is boring. You think that to do anything existing, will hurt or make you bored. That's not true. You need to find your passions whilst you're young so you get experience by the time you're older.
Can you go out and do many different things each weekend? Use time wisely.

How can oneself do this? You think of what you are doing physically right now, and, what your future is. You question it and probably realise that you really don't know and want to do something about that. Then you get unstuck as the final goal.

As well, visually mentalise:
| this way is the day time way
----- this way is night time way
Please stop sleeping in the day!

Why do you? Are you bored? That means you are boring! Similar words, bored, and, boring. You've got to get to the next, accelerate! Please just do everything straight and go as fast as possible. It's much better!

Why is it important and not boring to find your passions or get some hobbies or practice talents as a serious subject whilst you're a child? Because with school, you think you are tired and have no time but infact adults have to work too! Some adults take on two-five jobs and have no time on their hands for fun.

Right now, you have the weekend. There's no excuse! You have a little thinking space when you daydream between lessons, about what you want to be and do. So stop complaining, by being a sleeping rebel, and be awake with excitement in the mornings for your passions because you love to be alive because you found what you really want to do, your heart's desire!
If you moan and complain, it's not fun. It's not like a child. You just complain! Can't you try to have 'a no complaints day'? This is about you, only you.

I need to prove to you that there are many things in the world, that you can do, if you shifted your butt. It's good to be adventurous, and the thing is, you need to prioritise better, to fufill the destiny of gaining a route that includes adventue and excite. Please do not moan about life.

If you complete tasks, life is easier, please please know why! Then you may do lots of better things. "Get all things over with" as a priority and motto.

But when you lay in bed, and you just moan, it's pitiful. There's no true life there. Please be ambitious to something interesting, by having exploration if many topics! That is what interesting people do.

I am not saying that you are bad, for sure, I want to push you. I will try to push you to be better.
By the way, you don't impress and you can't inspire me, when you do not get out of bed in the morning. It's talentless.

"What do you get out of bed for on the weekend mornings?"
A- I sleep like an unconscious zombie
B - That not it, I'm bright, I make fitness goals and I exercise. I'm the good student. I have high morals that take me to the next.

Which one do you want you to be? Why do you not have ideals like this?
You moan because you're a complainer. I'm going to hit your ego there. Push a little harder. I'm just caring for you with this advise. See smartly.

Replace the word excuse, with reason. Reason means meaningful. Excuse means lie to procrastinate.
You can't half heartedly live your life, when your body is a whole or full one being vessel! You will see the whole value of life's living.

To say, I wish money wasn't involved. I would be able to aim higher?? That's a limited mindset. To aspire to do the same thing whether money is taken from someone else's hands or not, think thought, exactly how can I do that...?

How can you know what to do? Try everything you can, search a lot for things, and love them within, really feel within how you feel about everything to make decisions on what feel you, what you like, and that will help to guide you to knowing what you want to do. How about seeing the sports centre's timetable, then go take a look around, literally ask for a tour at their reception, for someone to take you around the facilities to have a look.

Do you play an instrument? Can you afford lessons? There are many good Asian kids at them. Maybe there is a subtopic to a subject you'd enjoy to study, with music it could be as ridiculous as 'geometry into music' or learning about how 'each note or key goes up with a 90 degree angle, it's not about the number ninety, but the quarter turn-like shape/angle/lines/surface of change by direction (it's complicated, thinking not generally taught in school)' - something unususal is really fine, all good.

Don't let your hobbies get generic and effortless, challenge the brain and body for something new. Variate piano pieces and have lots of new ones at hand to try too, for when you get the motivation for playing piano. If you are training at a sport, get some theory down, learn about body physics or atonomy or tips and skills online or in books.

Question: What do you want to be when your older? And what did you previously think about being, if your ideal work idea changed? Why was that?

There is more, higher, and aim for the next! To have higher traits. Because, who are you? Who will you be? A good, kind, productive person? Have you ever had the pressure 'don't let yourself down'? English children get that from the higher teachers, especially if someone behaves bad. It means, 'please aspire to be better, remember how sucky you are, in comparison to the higher abilitied people, you are not the best, or close, and that makes you bad and like rubbish or wasting life and not good enough!' Refer to Chinese althletes and super abilitied ones.

You can't do nothing. You have not the question to find your existence! Isn't it pointless of your self, letting yourself down, to be doing nothing at all? Please, do your life expansion and self empowerment studies diligiently. Then 'if you are doing not one thing, there'll be something else.' It always works out like that, doesn't it? You've got to learn this type of self-responsibility for yourself - to be dilligent.

Give yourself a timetable and be time wise if needs be. STICK TO IT. Caps lock has reason!
I really hope so far, you see big sister is just trying to look after you and eventually motivate you forwards.

You are lazy, like a zombie. Be productive. Always ask yourself, what should I do? What should I be doing right now? Think that I will always move.
Straighten up a bit. Be faster. Take everything with full control and grab what's infront of you by the hands. Go for it!
Do NOT lock your door!
My message now is that you are fixable. To be neater. To be sweeter rather that sour.

Do everything that you can in your life to improve it. What is wasted time? When you get to the age of 50 and realise that you never climbed a mountain and swam the sea.

You need more hobbies. Talents are inspiring. Ambition comes from passtime activities.
There is a key word called "initiative". Please research it. It is like having will power.
Not having it makes you look like a zombie idiot.

Please first online search about initiative, reads the links that come up for the question "how to gain initiative".

It's a perspective. Maybe your described "laziness" isn't being lazy, the aspect is being slower. Getting things done, each task one after the other efficiently. Like an early waker that does lots of tasks before 8am. That's why I requested you read articles about taking initiative, for the purpose of knowing *only you* are the person that moves you, on a path of the best, to the best... ¿¿

I do not like forceful things. I travelled abroad for perusing my dream of an easier life. I look at careers for the future in my spare time. Also know that to you the reader I am your friend, I am on your side. Know that everything I send is purely because I care about you and love you and want the best things to happen.
I act upon behaviour, because of trying to improve things, that's all. "Start, Go," when you're ready.

... I am asking that, you get your own thought, to do and persue a hobby, with passion. If you don't want to study more, do your own research project instead. Try building something. It would be ideal to be very good at a sport, for college, or, pass all the levels in a grading system for something.
Do you have any more ambitions for something you already do? There could be some opportunities. But if it is hard to search, little can be found. So find where/how it's easy to search since it will exist.
If you're a talented musician, go find and practice another instument. There's going to be a kid or two applying to college saying they play three or four instruments very well, with certificates too.

My personal suggestion. would be to join some type of fitness activity so that your health is upkept at the same time. Some people say you can never have too much exercise. The classroom is sadly a place to sit down for long durations of time. It's good to learn about how to stay fit. So do you like this idea?

And as for what you can do, have you actually passed qualifications for it, or do you only play/do it very well? It is not egoistic to have official proof that you can do something, you would immediately have evidence, for showing others, that is, evidence of capability, because it's just demining yourself and giving a loose version of yourself if you do not show on paper to an institute, if applying, your best abilities, rather than just saying like, 'I can play piano and I like it'. It's Not too early (or too late!) to do this.

You should watch videos, online videos of talent, I wonder if you've ever watched professional skating? To watch small clips on your phone, it's the one time where I will approve it. You could search some names like:
Yuna Kim korean
Yuzuyu Hanyu Japanese
Chen Lu Chinese

Look up things like: kung fu, acro gymnastics, rhythmic gymnastics, singer wows audience, parkour.
You will probably get suitable 'suggestions' on the sidebar for those to continue watching inspiration.

Join a club?

Whilst I'm talking about better use of your phone, that you should ideally only use for either
- emergency calls
- your education
if you know what's good for you.
What did kids do 10 years ago before having personal phones? What did they do 100, 1000, or even 10,000 years ago..? Play and have fun!

It is good to get an application for the phone that challenges quick maths. Every day, when you wake up play on it for 2 to 5 minutes!
I'm saying it because research said that it helped increase brain activity. About 10 years ago there was a Japanese man that made a handheld game for it, a book too, called "brain training". Both were very highly successful, selling millions of copies. I bought them.

There are applications for the phone for flashcards. I loved learning Spanish words that way. Eating breakfast before school every day, I attempted to learn 15 new words. That's me being a good girl. Now get smart and be a little goody two shoes.

Your smart phone is an opportunity for gathering information. When I use my phone, I look up sites of institutes I could work at, then aspire to go there.
Another thing might be to learn another subject of your enjoyment, as a pass time. There are some great educational websites on the internet that the creators of the site really hope that you will stumble across them.
The internet can be used for research. You get an idea and develop it, then you supplement your ideas through other's research posted to the sites.
You can use the internet to inspire you. You can watch videos of martial arts or gymnastics competitions.
It can also be used for instruction if you don't know how to make something. How to bake a cake; How to fry a pancake. How to look after a plant.

If stretching or yoga or sport is not it for you, maybe you could attempt: Caligraphy, Weaving, Dancing, Chess, Singing, Tai chi, Philosophy, painting, study medicine, volunteer work (helping out old people or working with animal rescue hospitals)
There will be things you can think of.

A problem in the world is there are sometimes dumb people who get on TV or hit the spotlight, whilst the intellgent ones hide away and won't hit, a potential! So if you feel like you happen to have something, show me something! A best student, a young bright girl, someone taking the lead...

On another, if you're ever wanting to argue, speak softly, respectively, politely, for the older authoritive. If you are intelligent, win by knowledge and logic, not shouting! If someone spits in your face, be the better person, just listen it out. To over talk is to be friendly. If it's your mom/dad they are probably only trying to be like a friendly parent. You need to find a way to get them to listen to you, not to just forcefully shout. Remember you are the future generation! You're smarter than them.

But remember too that you share traits with them, you're partially the sharing of half their DNAs. And love, what does love do?
eg to say "I'm listening to you. Thank you for your patience, knowing I do not know the situation. I think emotion is the most important guide. I am a feeler."

When you don't wake up on the morning immediately when you are asked, you create a situation of pull and tug. If you push against us, there will just be a worse force against it. Please therefore go with the flow. Flow is normally spoken about in Chinese philosophy, but I am just trying to say that instead of fighting against us, please abide by the rules. If we are telling you the time to get up is at 9, this is when it is going to be. Do you want us to start at 8am to see if that encourages earlier awakening? I do not think you want that. It is just better to follow the timetable, okay?

I do not like it when I see you sitting there doing nothing. Then it is laziness. It is not meditation, that is different. You can't spend time 'doing nothing' because time is limited and it makes you look boring. If you were an interesting person, you'd be moving around, begging me for time for your passion, rather than me questioning your lack of movement. It's pitiful. There are many hard workers in this world. So tell me when you are going to start to do your own project? Hmm? I am waiting for your response!

The opposite of being 'lazy' might not be 'to be busy'. It is a type of productiveness. Not quite efficiency or effectiveness but it's similar. It's about getting tasks done. Many things, one after the other, in, amount, as many as you can handle with 'grip' over it. Finish like it is almost the next start.

I'm not saying that this thing that you like happens to be the thing that you want to do as your future job, all the time. I need you to understand that your self-love and hobbies are lacking evidence in your desire to move forwards and push yourself to do more for your future.

I want you to be less of a kid that has a very flat mind and just shallowly texts on her phone. I want you to be like a kid that loves drawing or singing and then waits till class ends so at break time, she draws or sings, instead of texts her friends. It's repetitive. It makes futuristic children appear depressive and boring. You can look at everything there is to like, and like it very much. Or, you can just do nothing.

Always, please wear presentable clothes. A presentable style involves not overwearing clothes, neither be casual or very smart but something that is fitting for your personality and ideally has a somewhat basic look to it. Change your underwear every day like your parents are watching you with that too!

I've got a tip for you, if you have some food on your clothing, use a kitchen sponge, wet the corner with the tap, then rub that on your clothing till it goes.

Also please open your window slightly. Please shower or bath regularly. This means to keep your room fresh.

Please use time wisely.
You have free time. It's your day off, you're not in school, or it's the weekend, or stop chewing gum face the teacher /straight after/ reading till the end?

How can oneself "use time wisely"? Apart from driven power in and out from your 'initiative' - You think of what you are doing physically right now, and, what your future is. You question it and probably realise that you really don't know and want to do something about that. Then you get unstuck at the final goal.

So when I am in this present now, do I have any suggestions of what to think? Yes, you chase,
what you like,
and also,
what you need to do.
You try to make work out what you found to like, and, what you figured you are needing to do as work job for money, and place them in the same box. Then you 'explore your passion'. It gives the opportunity, because, other people do what they are forced to do, without considering what they really actually want to do (thinking about it and making it very significant).

Don't loose yourself. Who is a person?

It's possible to live your love, and that is kindness on the self. Although because everyone has compromise, your situation might not be the most ideal. So you fight for or put force into pushing or ushering yourself into what you love.

My personal story is, I wanted to go to Asia. I was about to go to university but felt that education in this way would compromise a significant amount of my time, since I want to not study what other people do or what they have done (this is explaining what is called 'research') but what I me myself will do! I therefore left that university offer, for hopefully even better, my spiritual path for my ambition of making the world a better place.

What am I going to do? I just want to gently help others and discover. So then I make my contribution to try to help you become successful, and for me to have more spare time to really think of what I am going to do in this world. I spend my freetime searching and doing what I can do.

Everyone is of course unique. And what good things will you do? You can let the thought sit for a while. Until you get inspired by something that catches your eye. Or, you think genius. Then let me know! Nothing is crazy :)

I thought that: CARE is a very significant thing!
looking after,
being in a concerned state,
in concern,
taking into account,
all should be through a lense that makes doing care a huge priority!

I love you.

And today is like everyday, today is a 'no complaints day'!

From, not quite a mother but a part time childcarer.
Icem Blue.

Sunday, 18 March 2018

Post 56 - What do you...?

Disclaimer, many are focused on money, and I do not have the focus of 'get money', the unspoken goal of 'I must become richer'. I tell you very clearly, Why, by the end of this! Please read it like you're decoding what I would like to say, by reading slowly or tentitively, especially towards the middle to the end, let it sink in, if you want results
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I had home problems (I did not want to put up with threats) and as soon as I could, when I was 17, I ran away from home. I got my own place at 18, and I ended up travelling to Poland and after, China to support myself!

I learnt something I'm going to share here, from the detrimental loss of not having truly supportive family, or the struggle of not working even 3.60 pounds an hour (apprentiship UK minimum wage) spare money to splash to improve my wellbeing...

(it's a long read, but I promise it's worth it, if this does not change your life, please leave a comment!)

"The thing world" is vitally important, or you'll be told, by the world if not yourself, that you have nothing. No Inner that monks may speak of meditatively, no humour that you can make anyone crack up with, no flexibility agility to litterally bend over backwards, no, that's not good enough! Wow, it's just dramatic and demining. What did I do wrong?... Nothing. What is the thing world, then?! Tell me now! It is the providers: Money, family, or (at a tight squeeze) good friends.

That's how you get a roof over your head at night, and food in the morning. We know it, tough tight world? What or who are the 'good-to-you-givers'? Without them, are you indeed, nothing....? (If you're in the wasteless product, you see it's so constructed, there is nothing.) You're either a supplier or a runner outer here, a limited circulation of power, told to be YOUR existence. Read on to find the solution, if you're moved.

When stuck/in lack, here's the gameplay, you can't Buy deep friends with the money aspect, and you can't get family by money too, that's, if you have it, the limited resource. You can ask friends for help, (make some 'ties of providing' if you made insurance) but it's kinda awkward because this whole thing means that you don't really have anything beyond the limits of this human world (limited creation, inner box, do you get it?). They are all In This Trap!

You could have money, participating in the environmental ruin of Planet Earth, beautiful delicate Mother Nature, but this is tied to happiness limit (a security, a high to reach with the many 'possibilities' for happiness only abnormally hit) which brings the opposite, no happiness (work is "using my drab non-life to chase")

Going back to the whole packed thought of 'irreplaceable is better', whilst going to gain money too, is that a great height of capability / using life wisely, what does that provide? (Is this really a sign of self-power, to have, such as showing that you have the capability to gain?)
The opposites, sadnesses, happinesses, is there choice? It's made so that it's answered by plain 'No', it's a *Mind deep game*!

What shall we do with our lives to make value and find the gold of "worth living"? From another perspective, spiritualists say that your life mission is to 'find out what you're wastefully spewing out, to gain immortality (to fix, to ascend)' and we Must start our own 'beauty out' in order to save the planet (and the future generations, 30 years left does not include our children's lives here!) (cough, we were just talking about, saving our minds and ourselves, too?!)

We have to change so that we are not just living to harm it, to eat/sleep/work, being just a consumer, 'eating' plastic products by 'consumption'.

To be a "liver"-upper of absolutely magical potential, not being a 'dot' here in the cradle of mother Earth, is to be someone in the supportive world, provides sufficient shelter and sustainable foods (sustaining you And the environment) Why does this seem off tangent? It's not.

Y'know, do you feel like a Really expensive bottle of champagne that's being continually pouring down the sink and making it overflow ...?

You've not been treating yourself wisely, using life to it's best (improving, good, better, excellent,) look in the mirror and tell yourself confidently that You're beautiful and successful, and those who can do that, will wonder why everone else is not doing so! Can you take this mind?

You have to do cool things with your life. And also use your mind, finding wiseness is value, and the wise think, to where philosophy becomes the new or daybyday thought. Start thinking more often, learn to think. (Please take that away from this!)

If you're really 'flying cool', you are not /bored/, as you probably normally moan. That's about being with the attitude that life is /boring/, like to do anything existing, will hurt or make or turn you /bored/ (to relate to you, it's understood)! And, that's not true. I'm talking about the how of "acceptance closes the heart" (not the good type of openminded accepting/allowing, only specificly the turn down or turn away from desires and LOVE!) Can you just stop accepting? And whilst I'm at it, stop compromising. You're a full being, living like you /are/ half, therefore you can /be/ half, No! Enough! Have Love! Change!

You need to find your facinating passions/get very interesting unusual hobbies/look to practicing sophisticated practical(worth it) talents, so you gain experience for later on, if you're a child unsure what to do by 18, or an adult of 40, by equation of 80 - 40, you still have half your life left according to your life expectancy! Wow, that's indeed a long time to groan 'I'm too old to start Any Thing, at all.

So you can go out at weekends or whenever your free days / time is/are (you're free practically all the time, or not thinking between work need? Well lucky you!)
How often do you take initiative for your actions? To hop to, to jump brightly, to be trampoline-footed?

The park is an open area and a free resource to exercise and get some space. Feel free to move your arms or lunge as you walk since it's friendly, not embarrassing at all. The library is also a wonderful place to visit for sourcing information and reading for fun, you can study many subjects, by reading the many subject books there, with "the love to learn new things"!

What I wanted the point to be here though is: YOU HAVE FREE TIME
(read my previous blog post 54 on bluecharlye if you Still- did not believe that-!)

Replace the word 'excuse' with "reason". Reason means >meaningful<, excuse means 'lie to procrastinate', admit it harshly. To go not do something. A lie, that can be replaced with 'reason(s)' meaning, meaningful! Basically, you have to not find but become self initiative drive, without initiative to go forth, you miss out on opportunities.
There's no excuse.

Stop complaining by being a sleeping rebel, (to sleep in 'if there's free time') and Be Awake with excitement in the morning for your passions, because you Love to be ALIVE (have something to live for) because you found sonething you Really want to do, and your heart's desire!

In order to do whatever you want to, to be able to do actvities for your dreams or personal mind expansion.

You can't half heartedly live your life, when your body is a whole or full one being vessel!
Let's rephrase all that - Don't live half heartedly. It's a whole lot more worth living if you live like you have a whole body. You find happiness, and also, see full value in life's living.

Please then see the full _value_ in life's living. I bet, if you're not looking for 'how to be happy' as an end fufillment, you're wanting value in life, questioning the rubixcube-like riddle 'what is truly valueable?' You find value, you litterally be valueable. And never demining happiness, you find happiness, you litterally be happy.

If you're still kinda uninspired by all this, I bet you're 'sucky' and weak to the self, doesn't quite get "self-empowerment". Please search it up. Watch videos, don't read cheesy life books, the simple/practical/modern but spiritual stuff probably does it.

Please look to find, search, reach, look around the world, very resourcefully, rather than letting everything come TO you. No-one likes queuing, but that's like Waiting! It's ridiculous, like my wishes of everyone queuing up for something, whether it's a sandwich at a shop or funfair ride was Thinking, that's a resourceful way of using time wisely... There's soo much in the world that if you can't FIND anything, even if your training means that you book a 30 day martial arts course in China (it's possible to search this online), it's just too crazy to call...

If you think there's nothing to do around, but Really find to know what is in the local area you'll get shocked by 'the kung fu / tai chi center down the road, the swimming pool next to or hiding just behind the shop, and the sports center that holds suitable weekly trampolining lessons or open sessions with only a 10 minutes drive!'

If you're not sure what a sport is like, go ask if you can watch it by getting a timetable beforehand, by walking or just going to the place, or if that's really inconvenient, by texting/phoning them up, and if you still don't know what something's about (like wing chun) internet video search what it is.

Oh and if you're a parent, please lovingly listen to your kids too, take them to ballet dance classes or something. Responsibility that they grow strong and honourable, and not into ignorant arrogant little big things that the ununique child is turning into these days, but through 'strict Love' not 'forceful unthoughtful uncare'. Love your children, your offspring, make lots of proud acchievements possible for them, as well as being able to listen to what they dislike or want to do when needed.

Anyway, as for the leisure activites, try them out, hold them within you, really feel within how you feel about them, since you're trying to find YourSelf (by, during meditative relaxation, letting all these options stir/process/speak or spark new thoughts) to make life decisions based on your thoughts of thinking.
What feels you, and what you like, that, will help guide you to knowing what you want to do (keep searching, finding, expanding).

And to pressure you, there are just way too many professional acts, soo many if you search: gymnastics, got talent act, ice skating, ballet, there are just way too many good people in the world, even, that can 'throw knives accurately' or stunt perform like a maniac, or the many crowd that can and have ability to backflip. The problem is the 'how to' videos are made by suckers that only give half their and little and only 'free' advice. >You have to do this on your own. >What Will You Show Them?!

... breathe~

Let me tell you this
- There is a miracle called "unlimited willpower" !
- The thing is, people who REALLY want something: WORK HARD FOR IT. (and if you really want something too, you'll always find a way to do it, since the pull of motivation is strong!)
- A quote you should figure out how to go by: "if you're not willing to die for your passion/lifegoal, you are not fit to live".

Trust me, you move your own body. You own it. Your mind is your own, not someone else's. By your own, I mean you've absolutely got to do the leg work of getting yourself better things. Legs are symbolicly something of structure and the power of strengh to lift and fall you to the place of optimal being.

So what is honestly your /HEART/ or life goal[S], life's mission? Battleproof to undefeatable, here's another quote to fill that: "sweat more during training, bleed less during battle". Have/Find out, what is unconditional bravery.

We have sometimes been told to 'reach for our dreams', or asked 'what do you aspire to be?' and if you take an early mid-life crisis (wondering what the insanity you're doing on this Earth!) you disregard these questions, with a slump from your confidence, and think it would be just impossible to have a bright aspiration, in a normal world, by a normal person, the 'change is impossible' or the opposite thought 'I have to do something with my life, before I die..!'

Let's have this dilemma placed in another way. Money can't buy hapiness, but what can grab, pull, bring all that happy and good stuff into appearence before me?

And here's the deal: If money wasn't involved, would you aim for a higher career? (And redefine career as what you progressively are doing with your highest life, not just the drag of the time line you 'ride the wave on' since you glued yourself to your degree or qualification in fear this whole time that you can't do anything different because of your current Knowing, that is, your system of thinking, that is not turning "doing" into "ways", "moving" into "methods"...

Infact, I'll give you a little one of my top jewels, replace your vocabulary word of 'potential' to 'method'. Instead of having a potential, method will move you. Feel the shift? It's more grounded.

Maybe, this is still a limited mindset to think, 'would I aim for something higher From My and Self, "I" that is in total "me" without any disregard(!), if money was not involved/existed/invented into my life?!

I want to aspire and also have ambition to do the same thing whether money is taken from someone else's hands or not. Sorry, I was talking from the viewpoint or mindset that I should create my own resource (instead of 'working for someone else, or unavoidably if unsustainably sourcing goods, damaging the environment directly by creating material products.) Okay - whether I'm getting paid by someone else, or 'dancing on my own' (not sadly feeling sorry, but strongly optimisticly having my own guts to amazingly and professionally do my own thing.)

How can I do that?
{Your turn, create a list of what you'd like to do, the task being "to find sone type of money income, that you would enjoy enough to do, that does not compromise yourself or your happiness, or 'self discovery of the world' (for example, to be a security guard for the defense training, a pilot to fly to other places, a trainer to help others, a facility opener if you have the money to run that and a very skillful business plan!)}
Do your own thing, from you.
It's off note, besides that, the aim is please, "to purely love yourself, and love others too", That's 'love yourself, love everyone and everything always'. And a song lyric that really inspired me was 'instead of knowledge it was consciousness that moved me', go study 'ki' and spiritual topics from many places, like Egypt, China, India, to see what I'm on about there.
Thanks soo much for reading, this better help you !